My Story

A Journey of Returning

From a young age, one phrase echoed quietly through my life:

Mind over matter.

It was something my grandfather would often say. At the time, I didn’t understand it. But those words would later become an anchor — guiding me through the darkest and most transformative chapters of my life.

My grandfather worked closely with psychiatric patients, including high-profile individuals such as Ronnie Kray. He was based at Claybury Hospital, once known as one of the UK’s most progressive psychiatric institutions. As a child, I would step off the school bus at its gates, unaware of how deeply those early experiences were shaping me. I sensed the weight of that place — the complexity of the human mind, the fragility and strength that can exist side by side.

My grandmother, deeply spiritual and compassionate, would often say,
“We are all God’s creatures.”

She taught me to look beyond behaviour, beyond labels — to see the human being underneath.

Those early influences planted a quiet curiosity in me about the mind — how it holds pain, how it copes, and how it heals.

But before I truly understood healing, I had to lose myself first.

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The Storm Beneath the Surface

Outwardly, I built a solid life. I became a skilled electrician. I worked hard. I appeared capable and driven.

Inwardly, however, I was struggling.

Alcohol became a way to silence anxiety. Drugs became escape. Long workdays blurred into destructive weekends. I told myself I was managing — that I was in control.

There were warning signs. Falling asleep at the wheel and crashing my van was one of them. But even then, I didn’t truly change. I adjusted. I justified. I carried on.

The real turning point came later.

After a heavy day and night of drinking and taking drugs, I woke with severe heart pain. I remember looking at my daughter with a fear I had never felt before — a deep, overwhelming thought:
I might die. I might never see her again.

My wife called an ambulance. I was admitted to hospital and kept in for seven days due to an irregular heartbeat. Lying there, connected to machines, I could no longer ignore what I was doing to myself.

For the first time, I faced my mortality.

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Trying to Change — and Falling Back

I entered rehabilitation. I read Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself. I began meditating. I wanted change.

And for a while, things improved.

But desire alone was not enough. After around six months, I slowly drifted back. A drink here. A compromise there. Before I knew it, I was fully immersed again in addiction.

The spiral tightened.

My marriage ended. I found myself living alone in a caravan in a field on a friend’s land. Seven years passed in that state — not always visibly chaotic, but internally disconnected.

There were bursts of energy during that time. I achieved promotions at work. I bought a new house. From the outside, it looked like progress.

But success without alignment brought no peace.

Underneath it all, I was exhausted. Numb. Disconnected from myself.

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The True Transformation

It wasn’t one dramatic event that changed me in the end.

It was reaching an all-time low of total disconnection — a place where I no longer recognised who I had become. The distractions stopped working. The escapes stopped working. The noise no longer numbed the pain.

And in that emptiness, something honest surfaced.

I realised no one was coming to save me.

Not temporarily. Not intellectually. But fully — I had to choose differently.

That was when dedication replaced desperation.

Healing stopped being something I “tried.”
It became something I lived.

Sobriety became a commitment rooted in self-respect, not fear. Meditation became daily practice. Yoga became more than movement — it became philosophy, discipline, and awareness. Reiki opened my understanding of energy and the subtle intelligence of the body. Learning how trauma is stored within our tissues reshaped how I understood my past.

Each modality I now offer was once something that helped hold me together when I felt like I was falling apart.

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Becoming Who I Was Meant to Be

As I healed, my life softened.

My relationship with my daughter deepened in ways I cannot fully describe. I found love again. I became a stepdad. I began to live not from avoidance, but from presence.

In Bali, I immersed myself in yoga teacher training, exploring not only asana but the Eight Limbs of Yoga — the ethical and spiritual foundations of the practice. I trained in Ayurvedic Yoga Massage and experienced how breath, touch, and awareness can unlock stored tension and emotion. I continued walking the path of Reiki, honouring its lineage and depth.

These were not career decisions.
They were life decisions.

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Why I Do This Work

Balance and Heal was not created from theory.
It was born from lived experience.

I know what it feels like to be overwhelmed. To live with noise in the mind and tension in the body. To appear “fine” while feeling far from yourself.

And I also know that peace is possible.

Not perfect peace.
But grounded, embodied peace.

Today, I offer Reiki, Yoga (including Yin and the deeper philosophy), and Ayurvedic Yoga Massage as pathways back to that steadiness. Every session is a space to slow down, to breathe, to release, and to reconnect.

There is no fixing here.
No judgement.
No hierarchy.

Only awareness, compassion, and the understanding that healing is not linear — but it is possible.

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If any part of my story resonates with you, trust that feeling.

You are not broken.
You are not behind.
And you are not alone.

Healing often begins quietly — with a single breath, a single decision, a single moment of honesty.

If you feel ready to take that step, I would be honoured to walk alongside you.

With gratitude and humility,
Kevin

Balance and Heal ❤️🙏

I deeply understand that no two healing journeys are the same.

Each person arrives with their own story, their own pace, their own layers.

My approach reflects that. There is no formula here only presence, listening, and intuitive guidance.

 

As a yoga teacher, Reiki Master Teacher, and Ayurvedic Yoga Massage practitioner, I offer personalised sessions that are shaped around you your current state, your energy, and your intention.

Some arrive feeling overwhelmed by the pace of life.
Some are navigating addiction or recovery.
Some carry quiet discomfort they cannot quite name.
Others simply feel called to reconnect more deeply with themselves.

Wherever you are, we begin there.

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Yoga as a Path of Awareness

In one-to-one yoga sessions, the practice may range from mindful, strengthening Asana (postures) to a deeper exploration of the Eight Limbs of Yoga including breathwork (Pranayama), meditation (Dhyana), and the guiding principles of the Yamas and Niyamas.

For some, the body is the doorway building strength, improving alignment, and restoring mobility.

For others, the breath becomes the anchor calming the nervous system and creating space within the mind.

And for many, it is a gentle weaving of both.

Yoga, as I teach it, is not about performance. It is about awareness. It is about cultivating a relationship with yourself that feels steady and compassionate.

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Reiki & Energetic Healing

Reiki offers another layer of support working with the subtle energy of the body.

For those carrying emotional weight, anxiety, or past trauma, Reiki can gently help soften what feels stuck, encouraging balance and inner calm. It is a practice of allowing rather than forcing creating space for the body’s own intelligence to restore harmony.

Often, I intuitively blend Reiki with yoga, recognising that physical, emotional, and energetic healing are not separate processes. They are deeply interconnected.

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Ayurvedic Yoga Massage

Through Ayurvedic Yoga Massage, I work with rhythmic bodywork, supported stretches, and breath awareness using my hands and feet to assist the release of long-held tension within the tissues.

This practice can be both grounding and expansive, encouraging alignment not only in the body, but in the way you inhabit it.

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Whether you choose Yoga, Reiki, Massage, or a thoughtfully blended session, everything is guided by what feels most supportive for you in that moment.

My intention is always the same: to create a safe, steady space where you can soften, reconnect, and begin to heal at your own pace.

Having walked my own path through addiction, overwhelm, and disconnection, I hold deep compassion for those navigating similar terrain. My experiences allow me to meet you not from theory, but from understanding.

Whatever brings you here — stress, recovery, emotional healing, or a desire for growth your session will be as unique as you are.

 

There is no rush.
There is no pressure.
Only space to return to yourself.

 

If you feel ready, I would be honoured to support you on that journey.